Astro-Nut 👨🏽‍🚀

It’s been over 2 decades of derived pain that has been trapped in side me, the guilt, the shame, and betrayal that was dealt with the best way I could see.

The feeling of helplessness with know one to free me. The pain unbearable seeping out into all aspects of life, living with a quandary of shame and situational awareness and unknown direction to filter the feelings and direct spite.

Your decisions to hurt me and redirect and hide true Paternal rights, not allowing the love to be given and received with not even a fair fight. One sided stance with sand beneath my feet and a bitter soul who never realized the damage being done and the lies with no line-of-sight.

Mismanaged anger allowed a place to darken an outlook on what was done last, but hidden to maintain life’s progress and unchange the hurtful past.

Your decisions might have done irrefutable duress, but my faith is so strong right now that I believe that I’m blanketed by a stronger power not less.

So the pain that stayed is now released and I wholeheartedly forgive you and now love with total peace. The hatred I carried is no longer inside and replaced with positive reinforcement of the word and belief in a new sense of pride.

So you are completely forgiven and I will pray for you to heal as my quest is now complete allowing myself to live a full life and a feeling of a full circle like a wheel, no longer beating myself up and feel a sense or rejoice-fullness and allowing myself to kneel.

Never would I have ever thought I would feel such a release, forgiving what has been done and praying that one day you find peace. I will continue to pray for you and hope you shed the demons that haunt your decisions; Life is full-circle with multiple phases like a prism.

My cup now full with a sense of clarity and my path now clear, just daily work, true forgiveness and building and growing and not living in fear.

-Astro-Nut 👨🏽‍🚀